*thegraymalkin

Today there was a short but pretty intense little storm that blew through, wind, hail, torrential rain, thunder and lightning, the works. The power went out in different areas, a lot of credit card systems wouldn't work. We (we being Matthew and me) went to go get gas, and the stop lights a long the way weren't working and people didn't seem to know what to do without them, we went to get gas and we had to wait for the pumps to turn back on, and then the credit card reader wouldn't work, fortunately Matthew had cash on him. We went to the super awesome Chinese buffet in the mall, afterwards when we went to pay the woman that runs the register said to us "I hope you have cash". Again, fortunately we both did, which is pretty rare. We walked around the mall for a bit and noticed that a bunch of stores closed early. After the mall we went to my house and the power was out, and stayed that way for about two hours. It got dark and really hot in the house so instead of sitting there in dim candlelight we decided to go for a walk. In a manner that really reminded me of the zombies in Dawn of the Dead who went to the only place they knew to go to, we decided to go to the gas station, even though we knew they probably wouldn't have any power or anything cold to drink either. When we were about thirty feet from the place the power in town went back on. After their registers went back online they let us in we found out that the power had been off for four hours, not just two, and all their food went bad and their drinks weren't very cold.

It's kind of funny, sad, and really scary how reliant we are on technology. Something as simple as the power going out puts people into this panic and gives you this weird end of the world kind of feeling.

My camera is fixed!

:crawls back under comfortable rock:

Well, my supposed end to my art block is over. I had enough in me to do those two paintings, and after that, that was it. This really fucking sucks. I haven't finished a decent drawing since NOVEMBER, I don't count the Atlantis fanart because I feel like it complete lacks any kind of feeling whatsoever. This is fucking ridiculous. I just wish something would inspire me already. Theres so much I want to draw, and I still have this huge commission I haven't finished either, but I'm just not feeling anything I've been drawing or tried to start drawing. And because I haven't finished my commission, it makes me feel even worse to try to draw anything else. Besides that, I have another painting thats due for my painting class in about a week and a half, and I haven't even started it yet. I just feel like I never want to draw again, because the drawings I have done feel so void of any kind of emotion. Not to say that I don't want to draw, because I do! So badly! I just can't.

Needless to say, I'm never taking commissions again, and I don't think I'm going to take any art classes next semester. At least if I do take commissions, I want to person commissioning me to understand that it takes me fucking forever to get stuff done, especially when its a huge commission.

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Anyway, besides being in a horrific mood since my brother broke my camera earlier last week, I'll at least have my license and be able to legally drive my car soon. That should be nice. My mom filled up my tank for me today, which was really awesome of her. I didn't even comprehend what she said at first, because I totally did not expect her to do that. And when I get my license, I'm getting a new job, because I'm tired of getting repeatedly hit on/harassed/practically molested by disgusting old and probably drunk men with no teeth. And this happening definitely outweighs the occasions of me getting hit on by not old dudes, who are still usually gross, and even more rarely are they not gross and not old, in which case I'm not interested anyway. Besides this sucking for obvious reasons, it also sucks because I like the people I work with and its not a terribly difficult job by far. But, I'm sure I can find a better job somewhere else, at least better in terms of not getting hit on constantly by gross old dudes. Wow, there, I got it all out.

So, I guess I need to just look on the bright side, I'll get through this shit eventually. Besides not being able to vent my creative frustrations, things are going pretty alright. Since it was spring break, I had time to relocate my bedroom, and I got to spend a lot of time with Matthew, which was really nice. We just don't have a lot of time to spend together during school, especially him because he's always so busy. So that was really awesome. <3 It's so nice to spend time with him and not really have to worry about what time it is and just get to relax and have a good time. Even if things are crappy, he can always make me so happy.

Anyway, I'm going to bed because I have to wake up at 5am and go to work and probably get molested some more. Yay! Not.

After over two long and horrific months of not being able to draw anything no matter how much I wanted to, its finally over! Christ. It was horrible. It was to the point where I would get so frustrated and angry that I wouldn't ever want to pick up a pencil or pen or brush again. I think my first assignment for my painting class kind of unlocked the inspiration. Even though the photo I had to paint was really detailed, painting it was really relaxing. I worked on it for several hours at a time, it was very casual, I didn't have to worry about erasing or making mistakes because I could just paint over them. It wound up looking awesome and got a lot of good feedback. I think that really made me feel better, it made me feel like I didn't fail at art, like being frustrated and repeatedly not being able to get things to look the way you want for weeks at a time was making me feel. I've come to the conclusion that painting is awesome, and I'll definitely be uploading my paintings from this class as soon as possible.

Also, me and Matt have been together for a year today. To celebrate this and being able to draw again, A SURVEY!

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Ten Things About You:

1. Are you in a relationship? Yes :3
2. Are you happy? Yes, there are some things I wish would change, but so far everything has taken a turn for the best. I'm just impatient.
3. Are you bored? Not really, I have plenty to do atm.
4. Are you sad? Nope
5. Are you French? No
6. Are you German? The Bowers family is from Germany, if that counts.
7. Are you Asian? No
8. Are you Irish? No
9. Are you British? No
10. Are your parents still married? They weren't ever married.

Ten Facts:

1. Birth Place: B-More, HON.
2. Hair Color: Plain old brown
3. Height: 5'3"
4. Hair style: Blah
5. Eye color: Brown
6. Birthday: August 5th
7. Mood: A little tired
8. Gotta Crush: Yes
10. Lefty/righty: Righty

Ten Things About Your Love Life:

1. Have you ever been in love? Yes
2. Do you believe in love at first sight? No
3. Why did your last relationship fail? We all make mistakes, some are just not repairable.
4. Have you ever been hurt? Yes
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart? Probably
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? Yes
9. Have you hugged someone within the last week? I hugged someone earlier tonight. :>
10. Have you ever had a secret admirer? lol

Ten This Or Thats:

1. Love or lust? Love
2. Hard Liquor or Beer: Neither
3. Cats or dogs? Both
4. A few best friends or many regular friends? A few best friends
5. Television or internet? The fucking Internet.
6. Pepsi or coke? Either or.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in? Both!
9. Night or day? Night
10. IM or texting? IMing, texting takes me sooo long. A downside to being a grammar nazi.

Ten Have You Ever:

1. Been caught sneaking out? I've never had to sneak out.
3. Done something you regret? Yes, very much so.
4. Bungee jumped? Nope
5. Been on a house boat? No
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker? Not a real one, just gobstoppers.
7. Wanted something so badly it hurt? Yes, fuck that shit. The best things are the things you can actually have.
8. Been to another country? No. ;_;
9. Cried because you lost a pet? Yes
10. Wanted to disappear? I still do, god I can't wait until I get my car. I'm getting the fuck out of here.

Ten Preferences:

1. Smile or eyes: Both
2. Light or dark hair: Both
3. Hugs or kisses: Both
4. Shorter or taller: Taller
5. Intelligence or attraction: Both
6. Romantic or spontaneous:Both
7. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship ftw

Ten Lasts:

1. Last phone call you made: My Dad
2. Last phone call you received: My Mom
3. Last person you hung out with: Matt and Mike stopped by
4. Last person you hugged: Matthew
5. Last person you kissed: Matthew
6. Last person you IMed: Dooooob
7. Last text message you recieved: "Oh my god. You wont believe what we have on sale. Goth juice half off! Made from the tears of Robert Smith!" - Matt
8. Last person you went to the movies with: Saw Cloverfield with my Mom and Siblings
9. Last person you missed: Matt
10. Last song you heard: Last Chance to Evacuate Planet Earth Before it is Recycled - Porcupine Tree