Well, my supposed end to my art block is over. I had enough in me to do those two paintings, and after that, that was it. This really fucking sucks. I haven't finished a decent drawing since NOVEMBER, I don't count the Atlantis fanart because I feel like it complete lacks any kind of feeling whatsoever. This is fucking ridiculous. I just wish something would inspire me already. Theres so much I want to draw, and I still have this huge commission I haven't finished either, but I'm just not feeling anything I've been drawing or tried to start drawing. And because I haven't finished my commission, it makes me feel even worse to try to draw anything else. Besides that, I have another painting thats due for my painting class in about a week and a half, and I haven't even started it yet. I just feel like I never want to draw again, because the drawings I have done feel so void of any kind of emotion. Not to say that I don't want to draw, because I do! So badly! I just can't.

Needless to say, I'm never taking commissions again, and I don't think I'm going to take any art classes next semester. At least if I do take commissions, I want to person commissioning me to understand that it takes me fucking forever to get stuff done, especially when its a huge commission.

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Anyway, besides being in a horrific mood since my brother broke my camera earlier last week, I'll at least have my license and be able to legally drive my car soon. That should be nice. My mom filled up my tank for me today, which was really awesome of her. I didn't even comprehend what she said at first, because I totally did not expect her to do that. And when I get my license, I'm getting a new job, because I'm tired of getting repeatedly hit on/harassed/practically molested by disgusting old and probably drunk men with no teeth. And this happening definitely outweighs the occasions of me getting hit on by not old dudes, who are still usually gross, and even more rarely are they not gross and not old, in which case I'm not interested anyway. Besides this sucking for obvious reasons, it also sucks because I like the people I work with and its not a terribly difficult job by far. But, I'm sure I can find a better job somewhere else, at least better in terms of not getting hit on constantly by gross old dudes. Wow, there, I got it all out.

So, I guess I need to just look on the bright side, I'll get through this shit eventually. Besides not being able to vent my creative frustrations, things are going pretty alright. Since it was spring break, I had time to relocate my bedroom, and I got to spend a lot of time with Matthew, which was really nice. We just don't have a lot of time to spend together during school, especially him because he's always so busy. So that was really awesome. <3 It's so nice to spend time with him and not really have to worry about what time it is and just get to relax and have a good time. Even if things are crappy, he can always make me so happy.

Anyway, I'm going to bed because I have to wake up at 5am and go to work and probably get molested some more. Yay! Not.